Soo last week I announced that "February is the new January". I decided that this month is going to be the month where I start to get my life in order. I listed all of the plans I've made (plays, dinner dates, the opera) and all of the recipes I was going to start cooking, and all of the books I was going to read, and I woke up and did yoga and stretches every single morning of the week. I put effort into making my apartment neat and clean and vowed to keep it that way. February - unlike January when everybody says they're going to change their life/routine but never does it - is to be the month of getting my shit together.

Of course, that was last week.

Today, Day 1 of Week 2 of the awesome month of February, I slept in. I half-assed my stretches and did no yoga. I was tired and unenthusiastic at work. My pristine apartment looks like a war zone; as if at some point during the weekend a veritable team of sugar-high pre-teens ransacked the place leaving no counter space unsoiled, no dish un-dirtied, no item of clothing in its proper place. I ordered Thai take-out for dinner coupled with a tart taken home from work for dessert. I was too exhausted to do anything other than sit in the bath and drink tea. My body feels like it's been stuffed with cotton and my thoughts/brain resemble my apartment. [Have I expounded on the theory that the state of my bedroom always matches my mental state? Perhaps not, and perhaps here is not the time nor place to do so, but let me tell you that this is a true fact.]

Suffice it to say that I'm back in January mode. The 'it's 10 days into January and somehow I'm still eating turkey leftovers and my (over-acheiving) New Years Resolution has already been broken and I haven't seen the sun in days (weeks?!) and it's snowing again and it will never be spring ever and the only logical way to spend my spare time is in my pajamas' January mode.

True, I did go out a fair bit this weekend - being social, as per my 'Feb is Jan' referendum - but I think the real reason for my slovenly state is that changing one's routine is tiring. How do people do it???! Is it true that the only way to get out of a negative routine is to take it "One Day At A Time" ?! [Did I just use an AA reference?? Sorry if that is inappropriate.] These people who always get everything done - they must have a secret. Is there some sort of vegetable I should be eating? or perhaps I should actually be taking my daily B12? Or do I just have to suck it up, put in the work, and start by loading the dishwasher after doing stretches AND yoga tomorrow morning?

Ugh.